Sigh. I know it's not very nice to start off an entry with a sigh. It just brings everyone down with me, doesn't it? But I'm a little !@#$^%#$@$% because.......

1. I lost my diary. My pretty sleek black Muji planner for 2010. God, it's only March you know. I don't know where is it. And I don't know how or why I lost it. And there's something precious inside. I have never lost something of such significance you know. I'm normally not the sort who loses things, I don't lose phones (I just spoil them), wallets, keys, cards etc. You get the idea. My dear Muji, can you please come back to me???

2. My Organizational Behaviour class today was on the topic of Motivation. The presenting team beautifully and neatly summarised a few theories about motivation under one big umbrella of a four letter word, hope. The hope of progression. Think about why are you studying, think about why you want to strike it rich, think about why you want to get the best job. I love this idea of hope, as much as the Professor did. Because I think it is important for everyone to have hopes. You could be hoping for anything, whether big dreams or small little things. But hope is what keeps you going. It gives you positive energy and it makes you happier. It makes you vibrant.

But I know it is hard when things go wrong and you get so jaded. You just feel the world is against you.

I know things will work out right, somehow. They just have to. Meanwhile, just smile more.

3. You feel this rage rising inside you. It's kinda like a fire burning in you. It stirs you up, you feel it all over your body, you feel it on your skin, your cheeks flushed. It's not the heat of passion you are feeling though, it's the heat of the damned weather. I need more sundresses. More shorts. And light weight bags.